“Doubt is a virus that attacks our self-esteem, productivity and confidence. Faith that you and your life are perfectly unfolding is the strongest vaccine.”
― Sean Stephenson
Sometimes I question whether or not I should continue to pursue a writing career. I have so man stories to tell, but I get distracted so easily. I wonder if I’m serious about writing, and that is not a good feeling.
Maybe, I thought, I just need a little time off. You know how it goes. Thinking I’ll take a little time, ease into the next phase of where my life journey is taking me and determine how serious I really a about this writing thing.
First I think, NANO is coming up and this is the perfect opportunity to establish a new habit, i.e., writing everyday. Oh, wait! I had that habit and for some unknown reason I stopped writing every day. Even now, I wonder why.
Was it because things didn’t go exactly as planned? Because I failed to get my butt in the chair and just do it?
Some people believe you shouldn’t try to write every day. There I said it, and if you believe it fine, and if you don’t, that’s okay too.
Right now I’m not sure. I know that I made a commitment to turn in critique pages today. I follow through on the promises I make. I always try, an I’ consistent.
Also, through this last hiatus, I realized the value of time off from writing. Some times writers, like stories, need a rest.
Sure it was surgery and drug induced vacation that got me into the “not writing” mode. Enough to make me wonder if going back to writing was worth the energy. I did doubt it on many days.
This morning I woke up with a whole new attitude. I do want to write, I do have stories to tell, and I find storytelling a pleasure. But, at a different pace.
We are now nine days into NANO, and I’m not there. SO what I’m doing is looking at reviving abandoned stories. Yeah, that’s the reason I decided writing is worth it. So many stories, so little time.
Happy writing, and keep the commitments you make. You’ll be happier for it.